I am doing much better than I was before I started on the steroids. I'm throwing up way less and gaining some weight back. But I'm still getting sick a few times a day and feel almost constant nausea. The meds I'm on make me so tired and groggy and I find myself wanting to sleep a lot more, which is very out of character for me because I hate naps and I'm used to operating on 6 hours max of sleep a night. I'm getting out of the house more but am still really limited in what I can do or how long I can last. I'm worthless in the heat, which is also out of character for me because I'm one of the weird ones who actually loves our hot Texas summers.
It's been hard not to make any real summer plans. The kids are in VBS this week and we are talking about signing them up for evening karate and dance classes, but other than that I've had to resist the urge to fill up our calendar like we usually love to do in the summer. We had to cancel our camping vacation with friends last month and also had to skip the Kenny Chesney concert that we've had tickets for since Christmas...and if you know me then I'm sure you can imagine my intense grief over that!!!! We also had to cancel plans to visit family and friends in Oklahoma because just the thought of that many hours in the car makes me gag a little. We are still hoping for a short getaway at some point this summer since the kids are at great ages to go and do fun things. We wanted to make a few last memories as a family of 4 before life changes with a new baby and before our oldest baby starts kinder. But for now we aren't pulling the trigger on anything. No matter how much fun a vacation sounds in my head I know realistically it won't be any fun at all if I'm not feeling better. So we wait and pray and have had to come to terms with the fact that it's probably not going happen.
|19 week belly shot|
How Far Along: 20 weeks
Size of baby: 6 1/2 inches from crown to rump. About the length of a banana.
Total Weight Gain/Loss: I am finally back at 0
Maternity Clothes: Mostly maternity. I can still fit into my regular bottoms but prefer the maternity shorts with the stretchy belly panels on them instead. Super sexy!!
Gender: Baby H is a girl...although her name is still undecided
Movement: I'm feeling lots of kicks and nudges. Rick and the kids love trying to catch her moving, too.
Sleep: Still having a hard time falling asleep at night and having a hard time getting up in the morning but I'm about to change my med schedule to see if that helps.
What I miss: Feeling like a normal person and doing normal things...I have sworn not to take any of it for granted in the future
Cravings: I finally had my first craving in the last couple of weeks -- salad! It feels SO good to be able to eat more healthy foods lately. It doesn't always end well but at least I'm getting it in!
Best Moment this week: Making it to the halfway mark