Wednesday, July 27, 2016

In the words of Adele, Hello.

Hi there! Remember me? The person who actually used to take the time to write every now and then?

I haven't blogged regularly aside from birthdays or Hadley's monthly posts in a long time. And I hate that. I'm not exactly sure why. Obviously having 3 kids eats up a bunch of my time. And I also think a big part of it is that I have to drag out the laptop. Because we all know how much effort that takes, amiright? lol. But now that Hadley is starting to get on more of a nap schedule (hooray!!!) I am trying to be more intentional about writing again. I'm pretty sure only 2 people ever even stop by to read, but I love having a record of our days as they keep flying on by. It's priceless for me to be able to look back over the years and reminisce.

So. What do I write about? Another problem I seem to have is that with each additional child I birth, my brain gets mushier and mushier. Pregnant brain creeps in and camps out and then never ever leaves. I have pretty much become the person I used to roll my eyes at. You know, the one who is flaky and disorganized and running late and can't ever seem to keep her crap together? I even annoy myself these days. It's pretty painful to be both OCD and a hot mess all at the same time!

I guess I will start out by recapping what's been going on lately. We are in the thick of summer and it's been a lot of fun. There are some days that I miss having the routine and structure, but I am loving the extra time with the kids and I'm trying to soak it all up before not just one, but two of my babies leave me for school in a month. Thank God I have a backup baby. Haha. Harper will be starting kindergarten and she is beyond excited. It was tough for her to be apart from Harrison last year and he hated it, too. I love that they are so close and I hope it stays that way as they keep getting older.

I'm also about to go back to work part time. I've done some stuff from home, but now I will be officially going into the office regularly. I'm a little nervous about it but mostly looking forward to it. It's been the plan all along for me to go back once Harper started school. I just didn't know at the time that we would have a new baby when that happens. I can't think for very long about the fact that I will be leaving Hadley for 3 days a week or I start to feel a little sick to my stomach. Gah, why does it have to be so hard?? I know she will be just fine and it's only 15 hours a week, but that knot in my stomach is definitely there. Thankfully, I will be working at our business so I still have all the flexibility I need and can always change my mind if I feel like I have to.

On the other hand, I feel so disconnected from the person I used to be before kids and I'm excited about finding that part of me again. I worked full time and then some from the age of 15 up until the week I had Harrison. And then my life became all about diapers, naps, meals, snuggles, potty training, tantrums, kissing owies, and everything in between. It was a difficult adjustment and I know that a lot of that is just motherhood in general, but I was clueless about how hard being a SAHM was going to be. It is most definitely a thankless and humbling job. But it is also rewarding and I'm so thankful that I was able to do it. It grew me in more ways than I could have imagined and I know that I will look back on these days fondly.

I'm sure Rick is super thrilled about the idea of me invading his territory at the office. HA! He says he's glad I'll be taking some of the workload off of him but I'm sure he's also a little nervous about the shift in dynamic. I promised him I would keep my Type A (controlling) tendencies in check and that I'll resist the urge to be bossy :) I'm excited about using my skills and that finance degree that I spent so much money on. He may not realize it yet, but I'm about to make his job and life a whole lot easier. (And hey, maybe I'll show up the first day in just a trench coat? HA)

Anyway, Hadley is starting to stir so I'm going to wrap up my rambling. But before I go I'm going to add a picture. Because what's a blog post without at least one picture? Here is one of my 3 babies when we were in Mexico. Love these cuties with all of my heart and I'm so thankful to be their mama.







2 comments:

Jocelyn said...

I read... and I'm excited to hopefully read more in the future!

Also, for what it's worth, I've put the Blogger app on my phone, and that helps a lot. I upload all the pictures into a post directly from my iPhone (since sadly, I almost never take photos with my big camera anymore...). And sometimes I even use Siri to do the voice-to-text thing to speak the words I want to write in my post. It's not perfect, and I still have to get on my computer to fix what got garbled (and fix the grammar), but sometimes it's nice to just ramble out a little post, and then fix it when I can get to the computer.

Tienna said...

Yay! I love your posts! And your babies! And you!

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